My prayers lately has been for God to really open my eyes and remove things that are not of Him. Anything that pulls me away from Him…take it away so that I may have a deeper relationship with Him. You know that knot in your stomach that you have after you pray about something… that knot in my stomach is the Holy Spirit, telling me to let go.What am I letting go of? …relationships, hurt, fears, trust issues, pain, this plan I had for my life not realizing it is not my own. I know I have no choice but to listen. It is so hard for me to end things… I start to feel guilty… You know that door you are supposed to walk through, close and not look back. GEEZ that is so hard for me to do… See I thought I could walk through the door and leave it cracked… isn’t that enough for the situation to get better? NO!
Part of the trusting Him is knowing that He will never leave you or forsake you…that he has his your best in front of you…. so yes I have had to tell myself to go sit down somewhere and realize that this season is about him cutting on me…pruning me so that I may bear my best fruit. (John 15:1-2)
I thought I would be good at this by now… I mean I have been praying on it for a while now, but faith without works is dead. I have to actually do what He says…believing that He has my best interest at heart.
So yes I have had to delete numbers, give EVERY part of my life to Him and also tell myself to sit down and be still. Yes I have had moment of discomfort and times that I just wanted to cry…but never give up.
His promise is to me to complete me in this faith walk and walk every step of the way with me….Even if I only take small steps they are sometimes better than big ones or never stepping at all. (Deuteronomy 7:22)
Keep your head up!